Experiences of life

Life Happens when you're bussiest

2009-11-08T08:50:00.000-08:00

I have a confession to blog. It is really typical and you'll probably think how this happens to so many people. Lets just say there is someone interesting that walked into my life and the funny thing is they've always been there actually about 5 or 6 yrs. We were acquaintances if anything but talking to a person can make such a difference - go ahead and laugh at the abviousness of my statement. But its true.

Otherwise things are moving along in nursing school ZE END IS NEAR! WOO!HOO!WOO!HOO!

On my 5th shift, five minutes after shift start, one of my preceptor's patients oxygen dropped to the low 80’s and had to be transferred to the ICU which took about 2hrs to do. So mean while I assessed her three other patients and worked with two other nurses to medicate the remaining patients. I took report for two patients one of who was a heroin addict who was receiving methadone but not enough because he refused to be admitted into a methadone clinic. He was receiving antibiotics IV for abscess that was infected in his lower right leg. He also had a variety of cuts and wounds that all looked infected. After I hanged his IV, I came to check on him because the last nurse informed me that he tends to pull out his IV. And of course I was no different; he had pulled out his IV and put it right below his pillow. So at first glance it looked like it was still attached but it wasn’t and closer look I saw that his antibiotic had emptied into his bed. I told my preceptor who came in and let him know that he shouldn’t pull out his IV and at this point he wanted to know who told such a lie and then he wanted to talk to his lawyer. At that point my preceptor assigned me to a different patient, a young exchange student who was in a unrestrained MVA(motor vehicle accident). Fortunately other than bruises she only broke a finger and her left collar bone. The rest of the shift was easy enough and I found it easy to organize myself once everything calmed down.
Next week I plan to take on two patients, one IMCU(critical) and a regular non-IMCU. I feel like planning for this unit is a bit hard because I never know what to expect. It changes so quickly and if a nurse is off the floor because of another patient the rest of the nurses have to absorb the remaining patients of that nurse. As a new nurse it makes it difficult to coordinate with my nurse preceptor. Also I don’t understand why I have no access to the medication I can’t even see them. I understand I can’t take them out but currently I mark them off under my preceptor's sign in name. I don’t understand how my preceptor can assess how well am organizing myself if I have no independence at all. I mean I get really frustrated with this and I feel like I can’t really truly assess my own improvement. BAAAAAAAH!

Somali pt's are tougher sometimes than a non-somali - attachment issues on both sides.

2009-10-20T09:14:00.000-07:00

I did Saturday and Sunday from 7am to 2pm for my next shift. After my last shift, AG (preceptor) advised me to care for a non-IMCU(non critical) patient and admit one at 10am since she was on the admission board next. She considered this one and half patient. The day started good enough, I got a much better report, assessed and got my patient washed up by 9am. Then I got her the 9am medications which were are all thankfully PO(by mouth) much easier than PICC or central line medications. Andrea took report for me since I was busy with my 9am medication and my admission was going to be 30min early. It was a Somali teenage boy who was stabbed several places after he opened his house door to a girl he thought needed some help. He was in protection so he was only allowed the two visitors he wrote down for the police and no one else. He was young for his age and would not do anything for himself whatsoever. He was also shocked by what happened to him and wasn’t dealing with his injuries well. For the remainder of the shift except for BS(blood sugar) finger stick for my other patient I remained with my new admission until ortho came by to explain to him the surgeries he needed. By this time his mother had come and was asking me over and over again to explain what the doctor was saying in Somali. I tried to calm her down and took her to the waiting room because I could see she was adding to my patient’s anxiety. I told her they were just irrigating the wounds around his knee to avoid infection nothing was being taken out. She and my patient were both extremely agitated by the chest tube which was draining blood. The level of technology scared them and they told me several times for it to be taken out even though I explained repeatedly that it was actually helping him. I was assigned to him Sunday again. The Somali family didn’t understand that he was a protected patient an only those on the visit list could visit. This caused a lot of trouble between the family and the hospital security. They were given a warning to not allow anyone else to visit. I felt like I couldn’t communicate with either side the needs and reasons of the other. So I did my best and documented in my note to watch for the visitors.

First shift in a stepdown unit

2009-10-14T11:22:00.000-07:00

My second shift was on Tuesday the 22nd from 7pm to 7am. Because I came in at the beginning of shift, AG(my preceptor) told me about her assignment and I chose to care for one of her IMCU(critical care) patients. I figure since the patient was really sick if I could take care of her then I should be able to care of two non-IMCU’s next week. I was not prepared for the amount of medications, documentation and suctioning I had to do. After report which was very confusing and unorganized I decided to first check on my patient and found oxygen sat. at 89% with the oxygen tube on the floor. She was also coughing so hard that she would almost sit up in bed. There was also so much secretion on her gown and around her trach. The nurse said she produced a lot of secretion but I have never seen so much secretion in my life. She looked like she wasn’t suctioned for the past shift. As I came to find out it takes a short amount of time for her to produce this amount of secretions. The rest of the night was me suctioning, medicating and hanging up new IV lines because off coarse all were due to be changed before midnight. I was also lost on why the chromosomal disorder caused so many problems. This woman was a nurse practitioner when they found this disorder and when I met her she couldn’t even nod her head yes if you asked about pain. She couldn’t use the call light so I was constantly monitoring by doing my notes in the room. See I don’t how any nurse could handle this patient with 2 other patients even if they were non-IMCUs(not critical care). By the end of the shift I was exhausted, hungry, thirsty and I had mild headache that was slowly working its way into a migraine. I know new why the nurse I took report from looked so tired and all over the place when I took report. I didn’t like that they have medication due at 6am. How are we supposed to do notes with medications one hour before you’re suppose to report off to the next nurse. I washed my patient and finished my note by 730 am. I was so ready to report off to the next nurse. That was until I got a float nurse that apparently was mean to everyone to report to. I told her about my patient and all I did until I told her that we couldn’t draw the 6am labs because all of her lines had clotted and that we ordered TPA(medication to unclot the line) for the lines and paged the IV nurses at which time she let me know that she didn’t appreciated that I left tasks that were to be done by me for her. I was in no state to deal with her so I told her there was nothing I could do about that. I was never happier to be home that morning.

Since last time

2009-10-13T13:06:00.000-07:00

God I miss blogging about stuff. Currently I am at the end of nursing school. I am excited and both scared to death of starting out on my own. I am doing my preceptorship which is basically working with one nurse and taking on her assignment whatever it is and trying to manage it with as little help as possible. I am at a hospital where 19% of its patient population is uninsured. Compared to the other major hospitals in boston this is where your homeless, criminal and most of the minorities end up. The difference in care is starkly apperent. I would call this the second class hospital. They are understaffed, underfunded and underequiped. I don't find the time to eat let alone take a break. I am in a stepdown unit which basically means once the ICU is full they will send the less "sick" to the stepdown unit. These patients you can tell need one on one observation but the system is too poor and so they are sent to us with the hope that they will survive which puts the nurse in an impossible situation.

YAAAAAAAAY! I SCORED 51 PTS

2009-01-22T11:33:00.000-08:00

This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept.
At many of the major corporations today. It helps them get
better insight concerning their employees and in their
prospective employees.

It's only 10 Simple questions, so grab a pencil and
paper, keeping track of your letter answers to each
question.

1. When do you feel your best...

A) in the morning
>> B) during the afternoon and early evening
C) late at night

2. You usually walk...

A) fairly fast, with long steps
B) fairly fast, with little steps
>> C) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
D) less fast, head down
E) very slowly

3. When talking to people you...

A) stand with your arms folded
B) have your hands clasped
C) have one or both your hands on your hips
>> D) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
E) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your
hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with...

A) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
>> B) your legs crossed
C) your legs stretched out or straight
D) one leg curled under you

5. When something really amuses you, you react with...

>> A) big appreciated laugh
B) a laugh, but not a loud one
C) a quiet chuckle
D) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering you...

A) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
>> B) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
C) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted. ..

A) welcome the break
B) feel extremely irritated
>> C) vary between these two extremes

8. Which of the following colors do you like most...
>> A) Red or orange
B) black
C) yellow or light blue
D) green
E) dark blue or purple
F) white
G) brown or gray

9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are...

A) stretched out on your back
B) stretched out face down on your stomach
C) on your side, slightly curled
D) with your head on one arm
>> E) with your head under the covers

10. You often dream that you are...

A) falling
B) fighting or struggling
C) searching for something or somebody
D) flying or floating
>> E) you usually have dreamless sleep
F) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS:

1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10 (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1

Now add up the total number of points...My total 51pts

OVER 60 POINT: Others see you as someone they should
'handle with care'. You're seen as vain,
self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may
admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but
don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply
involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly
volatile, rather impulsive personality, a natural leader,
who's quick to make decisions, though not always the
right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone
who will try anything once, someone who takes chances and
enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company
because of the excitement you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively,
charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting,
someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but
sufficiently well balanced not to let it go to their head.
They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding,
someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious,
careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or
talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too
quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to
friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in
return. Those who really get to know you, realize it takes
a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that
it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever
broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and
fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a
slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if
you ever did something impulsively
or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine
everything carefully from every angle and then, usually
decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly
by your careful nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and
indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always
wants someone else to make the decisions and who doesn't
want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you
as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist.
Some people think you're boring Only those who know you
well, know that you aren't.

Life...

2008-09-26T09:38:00.000-07:00

life is good these days aside from the fact that its getting colder by the minute...but that is just part of life gotta take the good w/ the bad.

I love my family. I really never thought of it before but they have decided that they will take care of my entire living expenses while in nursing school. I mean all my sisters are pitching in, even the 17yr old one sent me a hundred last week from her pt job. And they call me all the time to cheer me on. Oh and they are paying for my ticket back to seattle during break...Alhamdulilah is all I can say. Yeah I just figured out I am in love w/ my own family...lolz and this came at 25 hehe.

My second day at clinical w/ my first patient came and I was so nervous my knees were shaking. I looked forward to this day for years...and I mean all freakin 25yrs of my life. I knew I was suppose to work in a hospital at my blastocyst stage(1st 4 cells of development) hehe.

I came into the room and introduced myself and after that things were so simple that I kind of laughed at myself for being so damned nervous. I remembered to do all my vitals, charted and impressively asked all the right questions...lolz. I feel not so clueless now. There is something to be said for just putting us out for the wolves on the first day cause it was either sink or swim and boy did I swim ... yeah I knew this was my thing and hospitals make me happy.
Someone in room 1120 died, another had a heart attack and another one had a mild stroke. Who knew the neurofloor could be so exciting...but then it is a post-op floor.

Till next time
ASG

P.S. Happy Early Eid Mubaarak all...

Somalia during its 15min of fame....Alqaeda days...

2008-09-21T00:30:00.001-07:00

this is a peace I wrote a while back when somalia was center stage w/ UIC and couple of suspected alqaeda dudes running about in somalia.

Yeah, the kid w/o food could have been me or any other somali person in the western world today, but we escaped. Yeah we're the lucky ones so does that make them the unlucky ones, the ones who aren't probably going to survive to enjoy life's simpler things like reading a book quitely.

If everyone in the world had a glimps of the pain of being hungery for days, feeling unsafe to the point that its normal or seeing the ones you love be killed, raped, and defaced then maybe we wouldn't be in a rush to start a war. I am so outraged by somalia's situation, it's suffering, my ppl's suffering.

The west goes on about their fucking grand ideas, like terrorism and how somalia has like OH GOD 3-4 "so called alqaida members in somalia" . Are you fuckin kidding me 3-4 for the amount of sufferin you're causing. This at a time when somalia is suffering from a draught for the last 3 years and now from floods. The kenyan border is closed and they refuse to take in anymore refugees because well god forbid the 3-4 "al qaida suspects might slip through".

Here is a thought for the U.S. leaders.... did they ever ponder at the idea that they are giving "al qaida" power by taking ppls suffering lightly. Get the terrorist at any cost!! What are they on a mission to make the most enemies the fastest way!

And now stupid ass cnn is going on and on about how somalia was always a problem!

REALLY! how so mr.senior analyst jack ass. Well we all remember "black hawk down". Do we? the most boring, untrue shit ever made in hollywood, how could we forget! go on sir. Well the somalis never liked the U.S.? mmmmhhhh that must be why they came to U.S. in droves and the U.S. granted them permanent residence...cause of the mutual DISLIKE for one another.

mr. senior analyst jackass how do the somalis feel about the U.S. bombing of somalia's capital? Well they are happy to rid of at least 2 (not confirmed dead yet) of the alqaida members. They are infact celebrating their liberation from those Alqaida leaders and the UIC. ... yeah you know as somalis jolliest ppl you will ever meet don't mind the hundreds of death caused by the bombing as long as the U.S. whom we dislike are happy!!! Thank you for that INSIGHTFUL look in to somalia's situation mr. senior analyst JACKASS!!!

just reading it makes me angry...
later
ASG

Ramadan Kareem

2008-09-05T09:06:00.000-07:00

The best month of the year is here and boy am I excited. For me this marks the beginning of classes as well. My classes are two days of the week from 8am to 6pm w/ two one hour breaks and one day of clinicals from 7am to 3pm. But I am so excited about my classes that so far time goes by pretty quickly. Shoot my classmates are so supportive they remind me of duhur and asr prayer when I get too caught up in the material and they actually take notes for me for the 5min am away for prayers. I really love it here and my nursing class is like a big family...I just have to say alhamdulilah for things just falling into place so naturally.

In my non school related life am not doing so hot. The new guy in my life has become pretty boring and well I am ready to move on. My problems is I get bored w/ everything in life much too fast. Like sports I get bored w/ one sport in less than a year and I am ready to start something new. Right now its snow boarding and surfing that are at the top of my list...haha I know you're thinking why surfing of all things. Simple its new, exciting and I haven't tried it yet.

In other news that palin lady is getting on my absolute last nerve. Oh and is it me or are most republicans pretty bad looking bunch? I mean think about it we got bush, bush senior, Abraham Lincoln, Cheney, McCain, mit romney....all i can say is they should call the republican party the ugly party. Sorry to any of you out there who are good looking republicans I would say you are in the wrong paaaaaaaaaaaarty ... we dems know how its done.

Peace and ramadan kareem to all you good looking dems out there ...
ASG

During the long break

2008-08-30T08:13:00.000-07:00

My 3 week break was pretty awsome. I became a tourist of my new city and took like millions of pictures which I shall post on the bottom of this blog.

My good friend NF visited from seatown and well the two of us literally walked every part of boston w/ our cameras in tow. The week ended w/ a visit to the big apple and that was absolutely AMAAZING. I mean it's pretty crowded but I L.O.V.E.DEEEET it. Anywhose ofcoarse I had to get my self couple of guci purses which was actually pretty funny since I was lead to 4 different guys before I actually got my purses. Anywhose glad to not have been kidnapped after all of that following...you know cause I am kinda important to my family.

In other news...I am off to maine today to visit some relatives and just walking around the city. This is my last weekend before I go back to nursing school...Oh yeah BTW I decided on a MSN degree after I thought about the whole social work and international health aspect of things. Let me esplain to you why: I fucking hate paper work w/ a passion!! passion!! like this is some serious Passion ppl. I mean seriously this is bordering on the deadly kind of passion for hating something.

woooooooooossssssssssssssssssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
woooooooooossssssssssssssssssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

P.S. I met someone new its kinda fun so far...
aight ppl see ya in the funny papers
ASG

NYC

NYC time square

Harvard Med school

My School

hey hey hey

2008-08-05T09:12:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I walked to a gym near my house. I went straight for one of those classes they usually have in the gyms. This one was called "boot camp for the ladies"....funny right? I decided I am gonna break some rules of my own and overlook the sexiest name and focus on our absolutely gorgeous instructor. Well that was all good until he opened his mouth...goood God! The SOB was one mean instructor. I mean my ass still hurts, my stomach is killing me and we will not even talk about my arms and chest.

In other news...I went to my first wedding a couple weeks back and lets just say it was toooooooooootally booring!!! I decided I am staying away from weddings in Boston. I mean I am not a dirac fan ... but ppl were wearing diracs from two seasons ago...rolling eyes!! Somali women everywhere its not cool to dye your hair BLOND! Bad fashion choice and no you cannot make a bun like that one princess lady in star wars, what's her name?

P.S. the groom's brother was totally hot...except for the fact that he was growing a bald spot on the top of his head... gosh its awesome to be a woman

later
ASG

waz up !!

2008-08-01T20:02:00.000-07:00

Since last I blogged, alooot(english accent)has happened...
first I did my first relationship stint...lasted a bit over 3 months and ended due to unforeseen problems mostly on my part. Second, I moved to a new city. And Last but not least I am on my way to becoming a nurse practitioner.

So I finally made the move from the west coast to the east coast specifically a city where I think ppls hands are glued to the honk button and has well over a million colleges...yeah people I switched Seattle's dreary weather for the unpredictable new England weather in Boston. I love the city so far except for the part where people will honk at you for existing and driving in front of them as if you have no right to be there.

I haven't really explored the city much but shall soon with a friend visiting from seatown we shall make a grand splash.

Nursing school is exciting and I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!! Although I don't care much for my uniform but I am sure I will rock that ish like it needs to be and make sure every gay, straight or mixed man's head turn.

more of my new city adventures will be comming soon...

P.S. I don't look forward to placing Foley catheters...if you don't know what it is just pray to allah that you never need one!!

Aight mofos peace in the middle west.
ASG

IN OPPOSITION to H.R. 1955 and S. 1959: Violent Radicalization and Homegrown Terrorism Prevention Act of 2007 Petition

2007-12-03T00:07:00.000-08:00

IN OPPOSITION to H.R. 1955 and S. 1959: Violent Radicalization and Homegrown Terrorism Prevention Act of 2007 Petition

Since last time I wrote

2007-09-15T00:39:00.000-07:00

I have left the job w/ pestering idiot for a better job that pays better and is even more fitting in the direction of my future career and further schooling. I still work with refugee populations mainly Somalis and provide resettlement services. Although I don't work with as many Somali Bantus as I did before, I still favor them more than non-Bantu Somalis. Why? Well Somali Bantus came to this country really not educated more than most other somalis claim to be. I say claim because some Somalis will have the most amazing hand writing a signature like a CEO and they still claim they cannot read or write anything other than their name and address. It really pisses me off sometimes.

it seems to me while most people in the U.S are competing for higher better paying positions, majority of my clients seem to be competing on how long they can stay on welfare and who can sleep at home all day and count on the check still dropping every month without looking for a job or going to school. Then we wonder ooooh why are our kids getting so Americanized and going ---my fav. word---BAD. Forgive me but their is something to the so called "American dream". I mean in a way we can really with enough determination make a better life for ourselves compared to anywhere else in the world today. See I never really paid a penny toward my education all the way to my bachelors degree. In fact I got pocket money plus work study. So I really see no reason to be in this country and not be educated even if it takes a lifetime to do it. It is better than sitting at home or going to the makhaayat to hang out w/ other faraxs and talk about somalia's politics or whateva or going over to xaliimo down the block to get nothing but gossip.

I see no effort unfortunately from most of the Somalis I work with. They do however make every effort to find out all the loops that will get them the most money from welfare. I am sorry but you know what they say if you get money through lies all it will bring with it is more lies, more headache and in the end their is no benefit from that money in this life or the here after.

Ramadan kariim all
ASG

a pestering Idiot.

2007-07-31T00:57:00.000-07:00

I am nice to him and he tries to make me see how this woman his boss and mine is really picking on him for being late everyday. Is he late everyday you ask? why yes at times its half an hour and other times its mere 5 minutes. So why should I see his side. Just because you're a Somali! Mayn get the fuck out!

First you wanna get paid for all 37.5 hrs you supposedly work. But you cut every corner possible...coming late, taking an extra long lunch and leave for no damned reason w/ no one knowing where you are.

Second you come to my desk ever 2.5 sec. talking about "haye sheekada soo daa" as if a calamity has happened since the last 2.5 sec. you visited me. See you invite me to lunch ever day and me saying no EVERY FUCKIN DAY hasn't deterred you one bit. The fact is it seems to re-new your hope (must be the absolute scowl i have on my face)
:(((.

Third you've now moved to thinking I must be a complete idiot in that you think you can convince me to lower my work ethic standards to your level. I mean fuck if I was that easy to persuade would I be where I am today? FYI the answer is NO

So here is what I suggest: you want blondie to quit yelling at ya...grow some fuckin balls and develop some sense of responsibility. Otherwise stay the fuck out of my corner of the office and don't even think about saying anything other that HI and Bye you leering bastard!

I cant wait until my 3yr plan goes into effect!

New job and the headache that tags along w/ it

2007-07-16T18:51:00.000-07:00

I have a job that encompasses all I wanted to do and all of it with the Somali community. I help new Somali refugees w/ job search, application for I-94, green card and all the rest, I help w/ resettlement of new refugees (yes I furnish their homes ahead of time), then once in the states we do the standard hospital visits where they are likely to loose a couple of teeth (lolz happens every time), then its onto the welfare biznez gotta get that ish straightened out.

So why the headache?

I am just kind of well mmmmmmmmmmmmmm overwhelmed by how uneducated the mothers that come to me are. They cant read, write or speak english and according to new regulation they gotta somehow find a job. I mean does anyone realize the impossibility of this? One mother told me today that she memorized writting her name and address and phone number and if anyone asked her to recognize her son's name she wouldn't be able to. Even more mind bogling is that they can only study english part-time. I mean really who are we kidding here? Then there is the whole thing w/employees saying they can't hire because somali women wear too much clothing.

To top it all of the women are the head of house hold and that means they gotta deal w/ all the shit the social workers dish out to them ( and lemme tell you'all some of them SWs are heartless). I don't know where the hell all the damned men went and I don't even wanna think about it cause that might just give me a stroke.

These women I feel like are a million years behind and its not even their doing. I feel like they are climbing Everest except there is a whole lotta lava falling down on them. Every step forward somebody's feet gotta burn.

Well I am not one to despair but I am one to cuss and throw a tantrum. I am now only comprehending how much we still have go forward in this country. Well that is all....Except well we gotta get ourselves somewhere in the west if we plan to put back together the ruble that is Somalia.

2007-07-08T01:32:00.000-07:00

My day....mmmmmmmmmh!

Well today was my little sister's b-day yaaaaaaaaaay 7/7/07. God I remember talking about this as if it would never come, but it came and it went. You know time is just not as nice as it use to be in high school, endless classes w/ the most boooooooooooooooooring lectures and the most annoying bunch of students and I actually miss time slowly dragging by. Now a days I sit in front of TV and what seems like just minutes I loose hours. I mean what is the damned rush.

Moving on to the next subject:
Today I was in Costco the most horrible place to shop in the world but I was there as I am every two weeks if I can't avoid it. I was there w/ my mom and you know shopping spending money like it grows on trees (its not my fault i just don't value money) anywayz I was carrying things from the basket on to the lil runny thing so the cashier can do his business right when some old white guy asks my mother(who wears a jilbaab)"aren't you hot wearing all that"?

This isn't the first time I've heard that question personally but it was directed toward my mother which really agitated me. So I told him before my mother answers the question lemme ask you this "how does it feel to have this fair skin that cant protect you from a single UV ray exposed to the sun all the time"? open mouth...close mouth ... open mouth ... close mouth...for about 30sec.

He couldn't effin answer. Absolute idiotic ninkampoop. Here is the answer if you're reading this blog and are stumped and happen to be of fair skin...IT IS A FUCKIN CHOICE PPL. So back the fuck off with your shid of an excuse for approaching me cause guess what dumb ass this aint grade school and THERE ARE SUCH THINGS AS A BAD QUESTIONS IN THE REAL WORLD.
Hot outside [check]
still covered [check]
I wonder why? the belief men! its a religion you don't turn it off on account of it being hot outside. Thats what faith is about... practice it till you drop!

aight thats all for tonite
ASG

and what the hell is wrong w/ the title place no curser jeez? oh Watev

first BBQ ever! 4th o july

2007-07-04T18:02:00.000-07:00

BBQ I believe are easy and well more fun right? wrong!
First I went and got meat you know the kind shiid shiid! Then I set up the grill got all the necessary spatulas and was ready.

pause!

remember the hilib shiid shiid...my mother decided to somalify it. She put some cumin, 10 garlic cloves!-YES SHE PUT ALL TEN CLOVES- some kamsar and a whole lotta other stuff.

I enter the kitchen to find something that resembled....well i don't think its really describable. Anyways I then do the only thing i can and yell about life and how I cant even for once have a damned American BBQ.

After I resigned myself to making the whole neighborhood smell like garlic I start looking for the BBQ sauce.

Me: Hooyo where is the BBQ?
Mum: yaa
Me: The BBQ sauce, you know the brown thing in the bottle.
Mum: Akhas heedhe eedo shukri (who lives down the block) waxay tidhi khansiir sidiisi ah baa kujira (basically eedo down the block said it got pork in it).
Me: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh

I then went down stairs w/ patties whose beef to other junk ratio is horribly low.
And yes I made the damned patties with all the stuff in it and you know what?

I know all you'all will laugh but those patties tasted tooooo damned good!
lesson is momies know best!

What do I write about

2007-06-28T23:29:00.000-07:00

I mean I am not deep and I really don't get bothered much unless it involves politics then I will argue and get passionate and really get into it...its during these arguments that people figure out - "oh she is not all fun and games all the time w/ a grin on her face 24/7". See I have really strong feelings about the world like why are some people in the world working out to loose weight or stay in shape while others are starving. I mean does this bother anyone else much? '

I go to the gym regularly or run which ever I manage and believe me I would be overweight if I didn't but I don't think I overeat though...what I do is I eat junk food mainly bakery. mmmhhh well this blog aint going any where interesting so I will quit while am ahead ...if am ahead at this point...

gooooooood nite
ASG

Job hunting sucks and so does the world

2007-06-27T23:48:00.000-07:00

I have news for all new graduates; job searching is a bitch! and a half

So you know how people apply for jobs they really want, some they semi-want and some they only apply to make sure they at least meet the bear minimum which I call self esteem boosters...well that's what I did. 2 weeks into the process I have gotten two interviews one is a freakin 45min drive and falls in the second category and the other is a self esteem booster and so didn't even bother going to the interview.

I have like 14 different cover-letters(lightning befall the creator of this)and one resume. I have a headache the size of a camel and my eyes are tired of looking at the damned computer screen although thankfully I am not prone to baggy eyes (other wise i might just end up looking like a 50 year old~aagh) I might just be growing the office ass from sitting on my a-word all day long.

so what is this job that eludes me?
My dream job....requires me to be running around with ppl contact and be for an organization that is interested in refugees, immigrants, Africa, minorities, low income families - the havenots in other words.

So now you should think that ASG whomever she maybe should be an ideal candidate right? Given that their are millions of jobs out there that serve these communities. After all I have been a havenot don't think that i am one any longer :( but that's my experience its because of that experience that I want to work in that Field.

See I see the world as the haves and Havenots. If you can somehow manage to put food on your table and seek education freely(that is through high school)then you are apart of the haves. The havenots cannot put food on their table consistently and or cannot attain any kind of education freely.

my goal is to get a masters and a doctorate in Global health, Public health maybe international policy and to put in place these social services that the haves so freely enjoy w/o notice for the havenots then maybe we can talk about how aids, cholera, dysentery, malnutrition have disappeared from the wold not just a part of it.

So you the few who read my blog if you see any job that fits the above rattlings don't be afraid to send it my way. haye dee habeen wanaagsan iyo maalin fiican
woooh!
till we meet again...

ASG

HOT DAMN!! I AM GRADUATING!!!

2007-05-31T19:34:00.001-07:00

PHILOSOPHY JUST SUCKS!!!

2006-10-10T12:34:00.000-07:00

Have you ever read hobbes, what about benthlam, humes maybe? My dumb ass thought why don't I take an ethics class thinking it would be fun. Gosh! someone should slap me for my stupidity. I mean this class might have been fun if it was a focused on world philosophers but noooooooooooooooooooo its focused on American philosophers.

Lemme impart on you some of their philosophy...
Hobbes: everyone is selfish basically out there for themselves. One cannot possibly be altruistic.
Benthlam: What is right is what maximizes pleasure and minimizes pain. Basically same as hobbes except benthlam say everyone is out there trying to get the most pleasure and thus this makes us selfish.

Humes: Justice is only useful if there is a not an abundance of material, if everyone is not totally self sufficient(yes that means everyone must be able to reproduce on their own) and if people are not in a state of total scarcity of resources.

My response to these philosophers....

Hobbes: I am guessing he was a serial killer or a thief to think so little of the humanity.

Benthlam: I am thinking he was drunk all the time that the only way he could be in a state of pleasure at all times...gosh!! this guy is the least believable to me. I mean really how is it a philosophy to write were all out there seeking to maximize our state of pleasure.

Humes: what is the effin big deal about when justice exists and when it doesn't. Somalia is in a state of war so what is the big philosophy about when at war its weapons that talk and if you don't got any say bye to life.

I just have to keep in mind these guys were writing at a time when lets see....america was busy finishing off the native americans and importing as many africans as possible into slavery.

This how my reading goes....in circles...
In philosophy you can basically argue anything to be right!!!

Am I being mean for no reason...

2006-10-04T16:40:00.000-07:00

Every year at the beginning of the school year we have this thing called the Dawg daze. All the campus clubs, frats and sororities come out so the new students can be aware of these various clubs. Anywayz, on my way to bio class I decided to stop by the MSA table cause I knew a friend of mine was manning the table at that time. So I stop and she is there but there is also this arab guy helping her and our convo went something like this:

Arab guy: hi are you a freshman?
Me: Why are you talking to me? then my friend laughs cause she knows amma senior and i just like to joke around a lot...
Arab guy doesn't get that I know the girl sitting next to him so he chuckles and clears his throught and tries to get my attention...by then I am way too busy talking to my friend and I can hear him making the usual noises tryna get my attention but i just keep on talking to my friend. Figuring I must go to the U ...

Arab guy interupts me and says so are you like a freshmen or a sophmore?
I look at him with this annoyed look( which lemme tell u someone should give me a phd for the way I perfected that look) and I ask, Are you still talking to me? And his face totally lost all color it was soooo funny that I couldn't hold a straight face and laughed until I cried...GOD IT WAS FUNNY.

Anyways I never apologized but now he follows me around like am his best friend or something. Randomly running across school to tell me random stuff like did you know I didn't pray duhur in the masjid to which I answered did the royal family excuse you from it (of coarse he totally didn't get the joke and was like yeah its cause I have class during that time).

Another incident of this new streak of meanness happened during iftar at the U.
I told this girl jokingly mind you that they ( her and a bunch of other girls) were all sitting the place we were sitting before we got up for prayer. I was even reaching for my bag to move it and sit on some other empty seat. When she says " we did didn't we" and giggles ... am like she did not just giggle and make that dumb ass statement in the same breath.
So I say, "actually you specifically are sitting on my seat and you need to vacate it ASAP" poor girl blinked at me a couple o times but she moved outa my seat and sat at the other end of the table. She kept looking in my direction the whole night as if i would come across the table and do something horrible to her...
I am blaming this new mean streak on senioritis. I didn't really suffer from senioritis in high school but boy do I have the worst case of it this year. Its soo early in the year gosh I hope I can leave this year with least amount of damage to my GPA....

Anywyz that was my first week of school. This week is better except for that damned arab kid that keeps following me around. I swear he shows up everywhere I am. My friends think he has a crush on me but I think am about to crush his head w/ my foot to take care of that problem...lolz...not really but I don't know what to do

Oh yeah I get to start my tae kwan do classes finally... gosh that always takes care of all my frustrations...

Till next time...
ASG

2006-09-27T10:09:00.000-07:00

I am at a place in my life where I am starting to question my choices in life. I am 23 finishing my degree soon and insha'allah starting med. school in aug. 07. I haven't really thought about marriage yet...well didn't really have the time to...I didn't do the boyfriend thing cause all my friends seem to be just complaining with the exception of my one good friend who is happily married at 23. My relations don't miss the fact I will be 28 when I am done w/ med. school and well add the 4 or 5yrs of residency madness to follow and I will probably about 34 w/ a really good job or as my relations put it (single and old).

God I sometimes wish I wasn't a somali cause of all this ish about culture and bla bla bla... I mean really... ppl go on about how they are religious and bla bla bla...except they leave out the fact that the same way I will die when it is written for me to die...I will also marry whenever my time comes...IF IT COMES!!
so you know what all you culturally driven ppl can ...well go away!!( keeping in mind its ramadan I will think about cussing but will not write it...which is no danbi)

well glad that off my chest...mmmmhhh
Ramadan kareem and to all happy hunger time....
ASG

the flying dilemma

2006-09-18T15:42:00.000-07:00

So i have to fly back to my hometown and well i am faced with a huge dilemma. Its really quite big and if you're a woman you will appreciate this. I have to fly tomorrow domestically mind you and well after all the shopping and all the extra things i have accumulated over the past month and a half i know realize that my suitcase is full!! everything fit perfectly. The dilemma: heard of the new rule about flying with any liquid substances. YOU MUST CHECK ALL THAT STUFF IN. therefore, according to the above rule my make up bag/jewelry bag must be checked in. What complete bullshit, i mean really like i trust anybody with my most prized possession...maybe second most prized but still so i panicked and went to my uncle to ask for a suggestion and he tells me

why don't you just leave it here and i will mail it.

What is wrong with him?? GOD!!! i mean how is this better than checking it in. Should'na expected more from him he really doesn't understand.

Thankfully i have a mum who is quite smart and understands my dilemma so anywayz i bought a second suitcase and split my stuff between them and the make up bag sat at the bottom....SO YEAH WILL CHECK IT IN AFTER ALL but at least it was beautifully hidden and YES THAT IS QUITE IMPORTANT.

another dilemma solved mmmhhh enjoying my last hours of summer.
till next time
ASG

the title

2006-09-17T22:51:00.000-07:00

As i promised the title, well it maybe that every somali girl thinks this maybe not. Maybe you didn't see the A infront of the typical or maybe you did.

Anywho the matter of my atypical somaliness...
I drink more tea than any man i know currently which is a record about 7-10cups a day. I have adopted that damn american (smile at a complete stranger) character and well when tried on a somali ...lets just say i mostly get mugged. I love smilling at old islaamos and well they straight up say "oo taasina tee bay ahayd" and i can completely here them. I say the word "hate" too much.
first Example of many: i HATE the fact that the effin republicans are using every little mistake in the muslim world to drive home the point that they are somehow protecting this country from terrorists. well i do HATE it and you know what they will probably win the house again. GOD!!!

back to the atypical biznes
I have decided i am too picky when it comes to men! wait thats all women...lolz.
I have a quirky character, i am not afraid to be a fool and i have never worn a dirac (there i said it). The reason for my dislike of the dirac well its so darned big and don't bother to tell me its sort of the unique thing about it because my sisters have drummed that point home. i gather i will give in sooner or later but for now i fail to see beyond the fact that i have to control all that material and still dance...or shall I say sway which brings me to my next point...1 2 step somali dance.
well what can i say about this besides...mmhh boring!!!! I would come up with a better suggestion if the music didn't have sooooooooo many beats. if you're a dancer or a musician you know what i mean. Don't get me wrong i love somali music I just cant do anything resembling a decent move to it. and maybe some music is made just so that one can listent to it.

anywyz i can't come up w/ anymore atypical behaviour...so for now this will have to doo
ASG

my first blog...

2006-09-17T21:20:00.000-07:00

So i have heard about blogging and well i thought god!! another self fulfilling thing to just drive in our head this idea of the "individual". Now before you dismiss this think about it...the ipod is about self entertainment...laptop just look at the name cant be sitting on more than one lap at a time...and well the great millions of little gadgets out the.

So how did I come to this? well it all started with an english class!! and the rest we shall see!!!

I will explain my weird title later....
ASG